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by Anna Gilmore Heezen

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All the slow summer long……………………£9.99
I have been living……………………………£6.90
in a glass jar of anxiety……………………..£16.90
and dreading…………………………………£7.68
a day in August………………………………£6.57
when a devious envelope……………………£12.90
with a barbed paper tongue………………….£3.76
will slither through the door…………………£2.46
to determine my fate…………………………£6.83
with only a few………………………………£5.80
letters: grades that might……………………..£5.45
be as sharp as blades………………………….£9.90
or as soft as rising dough. ……………………£5.67
At the end of the day, is this…………………£3.54
all that I amount to?………………………..£12.80
Five letters on a flimsy………………………£6.53
ghost of paper?………………………………£6.45
The narrowest indication…………………….£3.87
of my past……………………………………£7.90
and my future. ……………………………..£14.90
God, these……………………………………£1.65
endless days of waiting………………………£8.76
and balancing on these tenterhook…………£17.76
cobweb tightropes just won’t do,……………..£4.50
they just won’t do. ………………………….£14.90
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I don’t want to be calculated…………………£8.76
counted………………………………………£6.84
or summed up………………………………..£7.36
in cold numbers and letters…………………..£3.56
that are typed by robotic fingers………………£4.90
that have no grace nor growth……………….£23.90
because I am breathtakingly …………………£16.00
three dimensional, and………………………..£5.35
to total me ……………………………………£2.95
would be like…………………………………£0.90
trying to add up the breeze…………………£??.?????
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