a response to ‘Whoever She Was’ by Carol Ann Duffy
they see me only in dark corners.
hurrying, they pass me. a hot flash of alarm
traces their face. delicate, like the warm trail-wake
of a finger on cheekbones. i am not golden locks.
i am anger and screaming and protest, presumably,
and i can taste nothing. i have no weight –
a passing shadow on the ladies’ pretty parasols.
i am cut from some different kind of cloth.
sitting with shoulders too wide, eyes hunted.
from my spread legs i pass abortive clots,
too-big knickers torn and red.
a clean virgin womb, mouthing, ‘please’.
birthing nothing. i am not a woman at all.
it’s a deception; i am no more than a
a wide-eyed child. stunted.
whoever she was, she is not watched
now she has passed.
they etched her epitaph into the braids
of their own daughters’ long blonde hair:
‘her children wait forever in that dark place, that cold place,
their unborn eyes puffing in the stillness, the blackness.’