Disclosure

by Sarah Westcott

How you peered into the weave of your pants,
sitting on the metal C of the school toilet,
spreading the gusset, searching
for bright red dots, splodges, Rorschach faces,
unequivocal as poppies.
 
How, when it came, it came
slowly, confusingly,
brown as silt, thick
and viscous, a smear
like a mark of mud on your forehead.
 
How you swooned
from the clanging cubicle,
your secret pressed between your legs,
tossed your hair as you overtook
scrums of oblivious boys.